June 26, 2008

Did Jesus Fake His Ordeal?

What a question! What assumption would I have to make in order to seriously come up with such a question? Or could it be that as a Christian I accepted ideas about Jesus that would conclude in this question, although I knew that it is out of question, and would not dare to pose it. Let's see...

Today in session I saw an old video -- “The Power Of Decision Is My Own” -- with Master Teacher. There was this particular expression about Jesus in it that I thought was very cool. Master Teacher raised this outrageous question, "you mean he faked his ordeal?", thereby showing the absurdity of the idea that Jesus did not undergo his own transformation and conversion.

In Gethsemane, on the cross, Jesus walked in our shoes in a most extreme example, and like any human being in his moments, he felt abandoned and forsaken. That is what makes him a savior. He was really here. He went through it, and came out the other side, demonstrating the unreality of this world. That is our salvation. There would be no need for such a demonstration when it would have been clear from the beginning that there was nothing to demonstrate. If he was perfect and not also man for this moment in time as I am and as you are, he would not have been here at all to show us another way.

(Christ in the Garden of Gethsemane
by Edward Coley Burne-Jones; 19th century)

So, here is the quote. It is transcribed from the video of a session in 1999 in San Fransisco in the Herbst International Exhibition Hall, The Presidio:

"I heard on television yesterday from a very noted Christian theologian that at the time of the crucifixion Jesus Christ knew exactly who he was. Come on! That he’d been sent from Heaven by God in order to show everybody through his sacrifice that there was nothing to sacrifice. I took one look at it and I said, 'You mean he faked his ordeal.' He would have to. What the hell good is a savior who fakes his ordeal? Can you hear me? If he knew he was perfect, he wouldn’t have to be here. There has to be a moment for him to save me when he felt that moment of conversion.

'Oh, he was sent by God and is perfect, and he faked his ordeal.' That’s not the truth of the matter. The truth of the matter is in Gethsemane, when he went off and all his disciples feel asleep … and he said, 'God, I’d certainly appreciate it if you’d remove this. I’ve done everything you told me to do. I’m standing here and I’m about to be killed. I’d appreciate it if you’d remove this', what happens? Nothing. God can’t hear him when he talks about death. Death heard him and justified his death."

That also is an amazing idea: "Death heard him and justified his death." God does not know of death. "There is no death. The Son of God is free." So, how could He hear anyone talking about death. If God knew about death, we would be condemned to death forever.

June 18, 2008

Just One Instant

How long is one instant? This question doesn't really make sense, does it? But it is fun, and lets our minds stop for a moment. It is a good question for which we don't have an answer right away.

This instant is the only time there is. You don't have any other instant. The past is over, the future not there. You can think about the past, or anticipate the future, but that is all. You cannot be in any other instant than this one, right here and now. So, how long is an instant? That is all you have. That is how long this world lasts. It is only an instant. And either you hate this, or you love it, because it is your freedom.

Lake Delton disappeared

The one who hates it, believes in this world of separation and death, and wants it so. He loves the things of this world. He values being a body that can be gratified by the pains and pleasures here. He plans and organizes for a future reference in oder to bring about what he thinks will make him happy, even if it means that others will suffer, be it because of or not because of the direct effect of his selfish actions. Yet, if this world endures only an instant, it is very clear "that death and sorrow are the certain lot of all who come here, for their joys are gone before they are possessed, or even grasped." (A Course In Miracles, Lesson 300)

The one who loves it, uses this thought to teach himself not to hold on to anything. Not a thing, not a thought. Not an emotion, not an experience. With this idea in mind he is protected from letting any false perception keep him in its hold, "nor represent more than a passing cloud upon a sky eternally serene." (A Course In Miracles, Lesson 300)

It is this serenity we seek today. We want it unclouded, obvious and sure. And it is ours by simply applying the idea that this instant is the only time there is. We don't have to know or believe this idea to be true. We just have to be willing to try it. To try it without making any exception. No matter what we may feel or experience, no matter where we may find ourselves, be it pleasant or unpleasant, only an instant does this world endure. There can be no compromise involved for it to be true. It is either totally true, or not at all. Therefore, we have to use it indiscriminately.

So, we watch our thoughts, because that is all we have to do. It is training of our minds that we need. Obviously we can have only one thought in this instant. It doesn't matter what thought, if it is only this instant that we can have it. Nothing can stop us from letting go of the thought we have in this moment, when we truly draw our circle with the idea that this instant is the only time there is. Why? We begin to laugh at the meaninglessness, at the littleness of what we may think. We can ask ourselves, "is this the thought with which I want to spend my one instant in this world?" Is there any worldly thought that wouldn't instantly become absolutely ridiculous? And see how much value and meaning we give our thoughts on a daily, on a moment-to-moment basis.

We tell ourselves the most horrendous and cruel stories with our thoughts. We indulge in them, because they give us an identity. We tell ourselves stories of sickness and death. That we are having cancer or Alzheimer's disease, or blablablabla... You name it. Or, that people die, are tortured and murdered while we stay alive. Or that the environment is damaged and irreversibly destructed by our irresponsible acts. And we fear and defend ourselves, because we think the same will happen to us. We believe our stories of loss to be true and telling us about reality. We never really question the reality of this world where there is no certainty, no matter how hard we try to establish it.

houses built on sand

And aren't we justified in it? We were justified in all of this, until one man came along, and stood up to the truth that there is no such thing as this world. That there is no death. That there is no reason for this world. That God is love, and still love. That there is no better use for our time being here than to seek the Kingdom of God. He taught us to trust, to have faith, to believe in God, and in him or the very works he did. He taught us to forgive and love our enemies, our neighbors. He taught us not to judge, but do unto others what we would have them do to us. He knew we would not understand it right away. He knew we misunderstood most of his ideas, and used his teachings to justify our agendas. Yet, he kept going. He made no compromise to fit his ideas into our world. Because there is no choice. There is no world, because the Father and the Son are one.

That was yesterday, a week ago, wasn't it? Time is a vast illusion, a trick, a sleight of hand, that we maintain by sequencing our thoughts, one after another, without ever pausing, piling one on top of the other, judging one by another. Yet all we can do is have one thought in this moment. There is nothing else. Thank God, and thank you, Jesus.

God loves me

How do I want to spend this instant? I'll tell you. I want to remember God, His unceasing never-ending love for me and all His creation. That He gives me everything. And that I share His will. That's it. There is no world. I will what He wills. There is nothing else. Period. And this instant is the only time there is for me to realize all this.

Thy will be done. I love you, Father.

June 7, 2008

I Am Dreaming -- I Must Be Waking up

I am a miracle healer simply because I decided to be one. Recently I moved to the Miracles Healing Center in Wisconsin Dells, where we offer a 24 hour prayer line. We take turns in answering the phone during the night, and last night it was my turn.

So, someone called for help early in the morning while I was still asleep. To my surprise I was awake immediately. I was clear in thought, teaching the idea that this is in its entirety a dream, and nothing but a dream. What does it matter what happens in the dream, who you seem to be, and where you seem to find yourself. A dream is a dream; it is not real, it doesn't have any meaning. Your only necessity is to wake up. That was so clear to me. It made me laugh. What a start for a new day. It was exactly what I needed to hear myself. Wake up sleepy head...

How does one do this? It is very simple. If all of this is your dream, then all of your perception is equally unreal and meaningless. You have to start from there, and not waver or compromise. Because then you are right in the middle of your necessity to train your mind. Mind training is essential, because you can't afford to give meaning to what is meaningless and past. What is unreal, will never have meaning. And now look at you. How quickly you forget!

"What if you recognized this world is an hallucination? What if you really understood you made it up?"
(Chapter 20.VIII, A Course In Miracles)

How fast you rush in to judge and claim to know what is going on in any given situation! It is all not so. You are completely mistaken. You see only the past. You therefore see nothing as it is now, meaning you don't see at all. What you perceive in a dream could not be called seeing, could it? As you let go of your preoccupation with dreams and past ideas you are released, focusing on what is true and loving it. That will make you happy like nothing else will. And it is all up to you. You decide whether to give meaning to what is meaningless or not. When you are afraid, you have decided to value wrongly. Amazing.

I enjoy my healing shifts at the Miracles Healing Center. It is a wonderful energy here, healing energy. We answer prayer requests, answer the prayer phone line, and pray for those who requested prayers. Sometimes we also get visitors who seek for help. It is a great way to give and serve, because I also receive the healing that I pray for. I know miracles are happening. Miracles correct our perceptions, and heal our needs and dysfunctions. Today I listened to beautiful music during my shift, while sitting in the sanctuary. I cried. Not only with all those who turn to us, but because I know that they are getting healed. It is a miracle. I am so grateful.