September 21, 2007

What The Hell Are You Doing Here?

What the hell are you doing here? What did you do to end up on this planet in this universe? Something terribly stupid, sinful, ignorant, or arrogant?

These are just some answers that are given to this question of why are you here. You have to ask this yourself. The question is unavoidable. It is there, and you will look straight at it, when you watch a video of the Hubble Deep Field. Some say, it is the single most important picture ever taken. It is breathtaking.

It is also interesting to watch the answers that come up to answer the question. How willing am I to put up with littleness? What little causes do I accept to justify my being here on this mud ball?

Also, how easy it gets to see myself here as in one boat with everyone else here! How small my flimsy excuses not to love everyone here do get in the light of this. How easy it is to see that we all must share one and the same interest, no matter how deluded and misled we are in our individual stories! Basically every story is one of separation, fear, lack of love, and the search for a way out. Everyone is looking for a way out.

Is there a way out? How about you?
Did you grow tired of what you do/are here?
Did you find a way out?

I can not tell what anyone has to do, nor how he will find his way out. Yet I can tell there is a way out. I found this way in A Course In Miracles. Its message might make more sense to you in the light of the Hubble Deep Field and your experience of it. It talks about YOU, about what you do in your mind. It talks about the action of your mind. Are you in defense of who you think you are, or in release or your self-concept? Are you in fear - non-existing - or are you in love? Do you contract, or do you extend?

"Every defense takes fragments of the whole, assembles them without regard to all their true relationships, and thus constructs illusions of a whole that is not there. It is this process that imposes threat, and not whatever outcome may result. When parts are wrested from the whole and seen as separate and wholes within themselves, they become symbols standing for attack upon the whole; successful in effect, and never to be seen as whole again. And yet you have forgotten that they stand but for your own decision of what should be real, to take the place of what is real." (ACIM, Lesson 136)

It is a lesson about sickness, being a defense against the truth. I love it. Here we go...

"Sickness is a decision. It is not a thing that happens to you, quite unsought, which makes you weak and brings you suffering. It is a choice you make, a plan you lay, when for an instant truth arises in your own deluded mind, and all your world appears to totter and prepare to fall. Now are you sick, that truth may go away and threaten your establishments no more.

How do you think that sickness can succeed in shielding you from truth? Because it proves the body is not separate from you, and so you must be separate from the truth. You suffer pain because the body does, and in this pain are you made one with it. Thus is your "true" identity preserved, and the strange, haunting thought that you might be something beyond this little pile of dust silenced and stilled. For see, this dust can make you suffer, twist your limbs and stop your heart, commanding you to die and cease to be.

Thus is the body stronger than the truth, which asks you live, but cannot overcome your choice to die. And so the body is more powerful than everlasting life, Heaven more frail than hell, and God's design for the salvation of His Son opposed by a decision stronger than His Will. His Son is dust, the Father incomplete, and chaos sits in triumph on His throne.

Such is your planning for your own defense. And you believe that Heaven quails before such mad attacks as these, with God made blind by your illusions, truth turned into lies, and all the universe made slave to laws which your defenses would impose on it. Yet who believes illusions but the one who made them up? Who else can see them and react to them as if they were the truth?

God knows not of your plans to change His Will. The universe remains unheeding of the laws by which you thought to govern it. And Heaven has not bowed to hell, nor life to death. You can but choose to think you die, or suffer sickness or distort the truth in any way. What is created is apart from all of this. Defenses are plans to defeat what cannot be attacked. What is unalterable cannot change. And what is wholly sinless cannot sin.

Such is the simple truth. It does not make appeal to might nor triumph. It does not command obedience, nor seek to prove how pitiful and futile your attempts to plan defenses that would alter it. Truth merely wants to give you happiness, for such its purpose is. Perhaps it sighs a little when you throw away its gifts, and yet it knows, with perfect certainty, that what God wills for you must be received.

It is this fact that demonstrates that time is an illusion. For time lets you think what God has given you is not the truth right now, as it must be. The Thoughts of God are quite apart from time. For time is but another meaningless defense you made against the truth. Yet what He wills is here, and you remain as He created you.

Truth has a power far beyond defense, for no illusions can remain where truth has been allowed to enter. And it comes to any mind that would lay down its arms, and cease to play with folly. It is found at any time; today, if you will choose to practice giving welcome to the truth." (same lesson, emphasis by me)

Tomorrow is International Day of Peace. What peace would I want except the peace of God, when I know, that our galaxy is one of about 100 billion galaxies, each one an island of stars in a dark and empty universe. What solution for any problem I may perceive would I consider worth pursuing?

Fuck that. I am going home. That is the only way to find peace and share it. Bodies cannot share.


lily said...

Yeahhh!!! You go Alban! Awesome. I'm with you. Lily.

you are amazing said...

more bliss to you
may all the greatness of your hearts desires come true and they do...

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lots of love to you

Alban, Teacher of God said...

Thanks Lily and Amazing One.
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